Saturday, January 31, 2009

My mother's poem

My mother’s tree


My mother is like an old oak tree
Though storms battle against her,
She stands.
Her branches are unending
They stretch to the pacific,
They touch me.
Her bark is rough and ragged
but that’s only on the outside,
She brings warmth.
Her trunk is like a castle
that gathers up the family,
She is home.
Her roots are deeply planted
To hold against the winds,
She is the foundation.
Though she has a knot or two
They only show her beauty,
She is my reflection.
She stands,
She stretches,
She touches,
She warms,
She gathers,
She holds,
And she is me, and I am her
We are the family tree.

Friday, January 30, 2009

James' Homemade Pizza




Another Doctor Bites the Dust

I hate doctors. The doctor called, and instead of calling me at work, (so we could have a conversation) he calls and leaves a nice little message on my home phone. The just of it is, I need to make an appointment so we can discuss what to do next. In other words I STILL DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!!! Like I said doctors suck. Don't they realize that until you have your appointment you will, worry, worry, worry.......and worry, worry, and worry some more, I will try not to (of course) but still there will be worry. He said we need to meet, so we could talk about what do next about the problem area (or something like that). Doctors should have to attend a "telling patients bad news" 101 course, it should be mandatory, and as a matter of fact I am volunteering to teach it. My first course would be enlightenment. The next one will be called "What not to and say to Dee, in order that you may live long and prosper." Okay, you all should be laughing now, that last one was funny, go ahead and admit it..........I am funny.......funnier than my mom......funnier than Briana......and way more funnier than Rob. I crack myself up.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

My Pet Scan




I had my PET scan yesterday. I won't know the results for at least 5 days. When I went to see my oncologist last month, he asked me, "Well is this stressing you out." I said, "Well, yeah". For those of you who are not following this, here is the short version. Okay I went for my regular CT scan, before my daughters wedding (in Sept), and they found an area on concern. When I got back home they made me do a PET scan (no, not like Rob thinks, I don't take my pet with me..... he is not funny). A PET scan is where they inject you with radio active sugar that attaches itself to any cancer cells in your body then the do a scan. So my PET scan showed the original area had gone away, but now there was another area of concern (here we go again). My blood tests are really good, so right now there is just this one more test, another PET scan to show this new area is nothing. Then I will be able to not be stressed over the whole thing, go back to just seeing the doctor every 6 months, and doing my normal blood work, and yearly CT scans.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Spending Time











Christina came over, and we spent the afternoon playing with the kids. I can't believe how big Kady-Bug is getting. I look at her, and I know that Jackson is probably way over in Maryland doing the same things she is......but I don't get to watch him do it. It has been a while since Christina has been over, she is dealing with the stress of her husband leaving and has been really busy. It was just great spending time with her and the kids. Here are some pictures.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Free Gifts

The simple things in life are free, a kiss.....a hug......a friend......comfort. You don't have to pay for these things, because they are free. I suppose you could pay for them, but why, when you can have them for free. Just think what you can do with those few simple things in life that are free. If you choose to comfort someone, you have made the world a better place. Many people sit and ponder, what great thing they have accomplished in this world. We all want to leave our mark in this world, we want our names to go down in history, but what could be greater than kissing your child, and leaving them with that mark of love. Even better yet, what about taking a few minutes to sit and actually listen to them, and I mean really "listen" to what they are saying, or play a game with them. See, it doesn't cost a thing, the things that really matter to us as humans are free, we don't have to pay for it. God's love is like that, it is a free gift, it doesn't cost you anything, because Jesus already paid the price, it was his free gift to us, whether you except his gift or not. God does not bully us into accepting him, it is our free choice. What gift free gift will you give today? A kiss.....a hug.....some special time......what about comfort? Just give.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

The Wind







Today was such a beautiful windy day. Winter is a great time of year in Hawaii, everything is really green, and lush. The mornings have even been kind of cold, but the skies are so blue, and the fluffy clouds remind me of my childhood. Laying in the grass in my backyard making pictures out of the clouds in the sky. I work in a building that doesn't have any windows, you get a big surprise when you walk outside and see what a lovely day it is. I really get a lot of joy from the wind, when I was a little girl I used to hang my head out the car window, when we were driving somewhere, it could be freezing outside but I would still have this need to feel the wind on my face, if I didn't I would get really car sick. One time, years ago when I was going through a really difficult time (I was really depressed) I would ride my bike to the beach everyday, and I would fight the wind on my way back home. One evening, I went riding like I usually did, and the wind blew up in a sudden gush all over me, and then it stopped and gently stoked my face and cheeks, and all of sudden I felt good again. I had this feeling I was going to be okay. God talked to me that night through the wind, and I knew that the wind was a gift from him. It was as though he hugged me, saying it was going to be okay, that he love me. God love sustains me, his love is enough to get me through anything. To this day when I feel the wind rushing through my hair, or it gently touches my face, it reminds me of God and I say, "God just hugged me", and sometimes the wind encourages me when I am having a really bad day. Do you feel God's love, maybe it was in the wind today.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

My Baby holding Kady-Bug

Rob and I always do this little thing, we have since we have started dating. I will see something really pretty, and stand there and admire it. I look at it and say to him, "See that, that is so pretty (or beautiful)." Then Rob says, "Not as pretty as you." All these years we have been playing this little game. I used to get annoyed, and think he was being sarcastic, or I would disgustingly shake my head and say yeah right. As I have aged though, I have come to cherish that statement (whether it is true or not) it is something I can rely on. When my Rob says it now I don't think he is being sarcastic, I don't shake me head (sometimes I say yeah that's right), now I smile, because it still makes me weak in the knees, and I know it is really true in his eyes. You see, he doesn't say it sarcastically, every time he says it, it is as though it were that the first time he is saying it to me. If you look in his eyes you can see that he is not lying it's the truth in his eyes, nothing is as beautiful as me to him, and in my eyes no one compares to him. He is mine, and I am his, forever. Ain't that beautiful?

Monday, January 19, 2009

PANTS!

Okay I just gotta get this off my chest. Why is it that men can buy pants in a wide variety of sizes (especially lengths), but women get the old one size fits all brand. Whats up with that. Every time I go to buy pants I have to hem them, because they only come in one Length.....LONG. I don't know about you, but I am tired of it, and I am not going to stand for it anymore. I say all women rally together right now, we can say, "WERE MAD AS HECK, AND WE ARE NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!! There now I feel better, I might even have to appear before congress or something.

Distraction

Satan sometimes traps us in what could have been, or what could be. We sometimes hold on so tightly to the past, or even the future, that we forget to live in the here and now. That is not how God intended us to live. He wants us to live in the here and now. I am one of those people who can be easily distracted especially while in church listening to a perfectly good sermon. I can get totally distracted with what I am going to do when I get home, or what I should have done before I went to church, and before I know it I have lost the message. It made me think today. Just how many messages have a lost out from because I let myself get distracted. Today I want to try harder, I want to do what I have been put on this earth to do, without distraction.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

The fouth of the fourth

Okay Briana here you go my 4th picture in my fourth folder. I don't have four friends on the blog, guess you need to help me get more readers but its okay, because your my friend.
This picture is me after Willie's concert at Aliamanu. Dad took it, I was tired and had to go to the car, I was going through Chemo, and had worked all day and had to rest in the car a while, he came out and said he wanted a picture of the prettiest women at the band concert, so I smiled pretty. Somebody should have painted some eyebrows on me. Remember all the match bandana's I had, one for every outfit, I was smoking.......hot.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Dream a Little Dream

Just me and my son
Garrett doing what he does best tormenting

My son Garrett, has told me I need to read this book, "The Pillars of the Earth". I am going to read it because he recommended it. I never thought the day would come when he would be recommending books for me. You see, Garrett never liked to read....at first. He reads all the time now, well he does the audiobook thing, but it is still reading in my book. I used to have to trick him and his brother Chris into reading. They loved comic books, so I would buy them comic tons of books. They would draw the characters, and talk about them to each other, and me. They never really understood, it was my way of getting them to love books, just a little bit at a time. Comic books have characters, and story lines, and plots (a lot of big boobies too, I guess). Reading has always been an important part of my life. When I was growing up I spent a lot of time at the library. In books, I found friends and enemies, I went to magical places, I could escape into another world. I read all kinds of books, fiction, mysteries, romance, tragedies, suspense, etc. I wanted all of my children to feel the same way as I did about books (I probably got it from my mom). At night before the kids went to bed, I didn't just read to them, I would make up my own stories, and they were nice enough to listen. I am glad that when the family gets together one of things we talk about is good books, which ones we are reading, and which ones suck. All of us still read, it is just another thing that binds us together, and maybe some day one of us will have one of our books published, just a little dream we all have. Dreams are okay, I encourage the dreamer in everyone. Do you have a dream? Why not find it, follow your heart for once, and dream a little dream, it can't hurt.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Windy

We are supposed to have winds up to 60 miles an hour, guess we will see. My husband and I just got recalled they let us know that we don't have to come in tomorrow, until later, because of the warnings. I made Rob go get water and batteries. He said there were tons of people out getting stuff too. The problem here is that any time the wind blows really bad the power goes out, so we are already preparing for it. We are okay we have lots of games, puzzles, and a decks of cards. I feel sorry for the homeless on the beaches though, they were evacuating all of them today too. Guess we will see how it all pans out.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Follow-Up

Me at Disneyland After my Miracle (Beating Cancer)

Well, I wanted to follow up on the lady at work, because I knew (I felt it) that God had done a miracle in her life. I was right, when I called her today, she said she had called the Family Day Care Office (like I told her to) and she said they didn't have anything, so she prayed, and her husband prayed (Rob and I prayed this morning on the way to work). Well, she said that today she got a phone call, and they told her they found someone to take her child. God is Great he gives us chocolate cake!!!!!! Sorry but only my kids will know that that last sentence means, it is a inside thingy. I wanted to stand up and shout Praise the Lord, (but I was at work), so I said it really loud in my head. God is in the miracle business. Do you need a miracle? Maybe you just need cheering up. Ask God to give you some encouragement today, and I know you will get it.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Pray and I Will Pray With You

Today I helped someone, I didn't plan it, I didn't look for it, God just placed it in my lap. Someone came to me in tears, and needed to talk, and I listened. I won't go into detail what it was all about, but I was able to comfort someone in their time of need, and it felt good to help someone else. God has really been working in my life lately (more like opening my closed eyes). When I think that I am not doing anything of much significance, he tells me, "yes you are." When I think I need to be out there doing great miracles, he shows me that the smaller ones are much more important. When I say to him, I haven't done anything really important, he tells me look at my children. Through all my struggles he is there, not just sometimes, but always. Today I told this person, "Pray, and I will pray with you." I told her that if God could help me with small things, like finding keys to my car, he could help with big things like finding good childcare. I told her God loved her, and asked her if she believed that, she said yes, then I told her, give it to him, all of it. I promised to pray consistently for her, and then I hugged her, and I just told her it would be alright, and I have faith it will, and I know that God will give her a miracle because I asked, and she asked.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Our James


James started classes today, back in college, taking more classes. Sometimes it stresses him out, I feel for him, he has overcome so many obstacles in life. To be born with only one ear, to fight through many surgeries in his younger years, to struggle in school because of his hearing loss, and to still come through through it all with such a kind heart amazes me. What a blessing he is to me. He does not dwell on what he doesn't have, or what he cannot do. He focuses on what he needs to do in order to get there. Yes he looks like a lumberjack, but I love him. I remember one time when he was small, a little girl came up to him during an open house, while I was talking to another parent, and she asked him, "What happened your ear." I got really upset, and was ready to go to his defense, when he stopped me in my tracks with his answer (I was amazed at his wisdom). He turned to her and smiled really big and said, "I was born that way, I am special, because God made me like nobody else." I could tell the little girl's heart was warmed, just like mine was. He is so special and I thank God for giving me him to borrow all these years, I look forward to seeing the young man he will some day become.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Never Give Up

Well I finally enrolled in my last class on Friday, can you believe it I will finally graduate. After all these years of going a little bit a time. A long time ago I started college, back then we called it Harvard on the hill, with a dream of graduating. I got married, had Briana and stopped going. Started up again in Las Vegas, had Garrett, and got divorced, and stopped going. Met Rob, got married, became Christina's and Christopher's mom, had two more, and stayed home to do my most important job, raise a Christian family. When everyone was in school, had a longing to do more, got a job, and finally enrolled in school 1999. At first I took one class at a time, then two, and well that was about all I could handle. Was doing really good until I got cancer, stopped again. The main reason I went back was I was preaching to my children how important an education was, how could I preach when I never finished. So, now I have one more class to go, and I can say, I did it kids, I never gave up (oh there were times I wanted to). Guess I am jumping the gun since I am not officially done yet. But soon and very soon. My advice for the day, "Never give up." Thomas Edison once said that he didn't fail 10,000 times, he just figured out how not to do it (Something like that).

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Just today

Okay I know you are all wondering, no I haven 't killed the lady at work (I really want to though). I am not going to talk about her, outta sight outta mind. I woke up this morning and made egg caserole, cuz thats what Willie wanted, but after I ate it, I didn't want anything else for lunch. Rob and I had an early dinner, we went to Bravo's and I had fresh spinach lingini, and their famous rolls. We started the morning at the "Friends of the Library" book sale, you can get tons of books for 1.00 or .50, they only problem is when we go, I get done right away, and Rob doesn't, I usually have to beg him to leave , or just pull him outta there. After that we went to Ross, I had a gift card from my brother-in-law just itching to be spent, and spend it I did. After that I was feeling nice (very nice) so we went to Walmart and I bought my husband a music card he loves his Ipod, I don't know what he would do if they became extinct. Oh well, all in all it was a pretty good day, just me and my main squeeze.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Some People

There always seems to be someone at work that irks the heck out of me. I don't know why, maybe it is God's wonderful sense of humor, but I always get stuck working with the local Narcissist, maybe its my task in life to save them from themselves who knows. I even had to pray this morning, but alas by the end of the day I wanted to put her out of her misery (or the misery she was causing me). This women likes to tell me everyday the list of men that have hit on her, are hitting on her, and will be hitting on her......and oh did I tell you she's a model on the weekends too. The list goes on and on and on, the only problem is she lies so much, that she forgets the lies she has told, and contradicts them. The worst thing is she talks all the time, non-stop, and demands your attention while she is talking, about.....who knows I try to listen, but by the end of the day my patience is gone, done, through. There are many times during the day I just leave, anywhere, just to get away. Okay, the good thing is she is military so eventually she will leave, the bad thing is it is not tomorrow. There are so many other things I could say about her, but she does that enough that. So I will pray, and pray, and pray. No I will not ask for patience, I prayed for patience one time in my life, and got six kids (and I love them dearly). Like I said god has a wonderful sense of humor, so be careful what you pray for.

Willie's Chicken Fingers

3 chicken breast (no bone please)
2/3 cup of bisquick mix or flour or corn flakes
1/2 cup of grated Parmesan cheese
1/2 tsp of garlic salt
1/2 tsp of seasoning salt
1 egg beaten
1/4 cup or buttermilk or reg milk mixed in with egg.

Heat oven to 45o.
Spray a cooking sheet or use foil. Mix bisquick and next 3 ingredients, inside a ziplock bag.
Cut chicken into strips, dip them in egg mix and then put them in the bag shake then put on the pan to bake for about 15 minutes. Then Willie eats them all up.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Shhhhhh!

Be very, very quite, I am trying to sleep.



Can't a Girl Just Get Some ZZZZZZ's

I didn't get much sleep last night. I am going through one of those phases I go through from time to time where my mind races, until it goes off running without my body (I guess that's what you call an out of body experience). Anyways, it is very hard to sleep when your mind doesn't want to, and the dreams I have when I finally get to sleep are crazy. When I was a teenager my mind would do this so much that I would usually have nightmares for weeks, and I would dream about things I that I had watched on TV, and conversations people or I had, they would turn up all twisted up in my nightmares. It must be my minds way of dealing with things, or coping, but I don't get a lot of sleep when it happens, sometimes it can go on for a long time. I don't really have too many nightmares anymore, maybe I have mastered the art of dealing with life's issues, who knows. I could lie and say that it was because of my vast intelligence, but my mom, or my daughter's would answer this blog with the God's honest truth (its a family thing, honesty at all costs whether brutal or not), so I will say instead, it is just that I am little more creative than most people, and my mind has a hard time keeping up with all that creativity. Creative or not lets hope sleep is my dearest friend tonight, I'll let you know how it goes. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Okay I Am Done Now

Faith says "Hi"
Me and James at His Graduation


Willie and His Girlfriend


A Kiss for Luck



Sorry More Pictures




Everyone's Here, Even Christina's Picture




Pictures

Willie and His Girlfriend at Prom
James' Prom
Thumbs UP



More Pics

Christopher and Briana

James Graduation




More Pictures

Christina
Marianne on her 3rd Birthday

"Peace"


Faith Staying in the Lines
Marianne "Model Material"

Rob Explaining Life to Kady Bug

Me and Jak Smiling for the Camera

Briana explaining to the Nieces,"This is My Man".
Kori and Girls Laptoping It

Sisters


Me and the Babes, Jak and Kady Bug



































Remeber this Briana?

Last night Willie cooked, he made chicken fingers, only he didn't fry them, we baked them in the oven. We rarely fry anything these days, and if we do we use olive oil. Willie's chicken fingers were out of this world. They were nice and crunchy, and we put some Parmesan cheese in the flour mixture. The only thing was he didn't like getting his hands all messy, go figure, a clean man.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Breakfast

Blueberry Coffee Cake
Mable Coffee Cake

This morning I made coffee cake, a blueberry one for Rob, he loves blueberry, blueberry, and more blueberry. The other one is a Mable sour cream coffee cake (they didn't know it but it was made with whole wheat flour) I won't tell if you do. Yum, yum.

2009---Good food!!!

James in Las Vegas, doing his favorite thing.
That's me and my little man, pregnant with his Bro.

James always wanted to climb the tree.


Last night James wanted pizza, so first we had to get the best homemade pizza recipe, and that would be my mom's recipe. So, we called her, and started on the dough first (trust me her dough is outta of this world). Then we waited for it to rise, and James chopped all the veggies, and I cooked some sausage, and did the dishes. I have to say he did an excellent job, I didn't have to help very much at all. Sorry guys, I forgot to take a picture. I left the pizza pie making up to him, he did one with pepperoni, and tons of cheese (he says the cheese is what makes it great). Then he made a sausage just for Willie, he said (gotta take care of my bro). We made a supreme for dad, and the other one had bacon, and pepperoni, there wasn't much left, and by today it was gone. I love cooking with the kids, it gives me an opportunity to have some good quality time with them, just talking a having fun, we listened to his music too (it wasn't bad). You go JG, your pizza rocks! Oh yeah and my mom's recipe is outta of this world, you rock mom!!!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

FIRE.....WORKS

Late last night Rob and I had our own little fire.....works. Yesterday I had to cook for our Chiefs birthday. I made an egg casserole, and some monkey bread. I went to the store and bought some metal pans, so I could just throw everything away after. Since I work in a secure building, it is not easy to get stuff in and carry it out to the car. Parking is not close, so carrying it back to the car wouldn't be fun. So I made it the night before, and just woke up and put it in the oven the next day. Well the metal pan had a leak, and big one, and the egg mixture spilled all over the bottom of the stove. I was going to clean a little bit of it up first, and then do the self cleaning thing. I love self cleaning ovens, you just put it on and then poof it turns to ashes. Rob told me not to worry about cleaning it up (men know everything). So I turned it on about 10:00, and it really started smoking, so I called Rob in and said lets turn it off, and I will clean it up first it is smoking. He just looked at it, and said it will probably be fine well just watch it. Well good thing I stayed in the kitchen, cause it caught on fire, poof.....our own little fire.....work show. Well, we got the fire out, and had to run to get the fan, and open the windows, we were very lucky the smoke alarm didn't go off, there was quite a bit of smoke. Guess who cleaned the oven (not me), Rob spent the rest of the evening cleaning the oven. Hey he did a great job too, it looks great.

Happy New Year

5, 4, 3, 2, 1..........Happy New Year.........2009 Yoopieeee!!!!!