Saturday, August 28, 2010

Rob's Home

Rob came home yesterday, he had a wonderful trip and lots of things to tell me about. He loved hiking he always does when he goes to Alaska. I am sure he will have lots of pictures for me to see. Of course I had to hear too bad you decided not to come...yeah...yeah.

I got off early so I could pick him up, life is good when you can get off work early!!!

It is really nice to have my alarm clock back now I won't be late for work.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

LATE

This morning I was I opened my eyes and noticed how bright it was. Instantly I jumped out of bed and ran to the clock (there is not any light when I get up). For some reason my alarm clock did not sound, it has worked all week except today. Usually Rob is my alarm clock he nudges me every morning and I know it is time to get up, but I usually wake up in a light sleep even before that, but not today I was out cold.

I was out cold till the light came streaming in my room to tell me, "GET UP ALREADY". Then I rushed around trying to get ready, my friend IBS was in full bloom, so I told it to wait I did not have to time for it today I told it I would spend time with it later.

I rushed....rushed...rushed, until I finally decided well there is nothing I can do about it. I called my boss for the week (My real boss is gone for a week) and told him, I would be in later. Then I took my time getting ready. In the end I got there, no one even knew I was late or cared. Maybe God just decided I needed a little more sleep. My alarm clock (Rob) better get home soon or I am hosed, lol.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Rob's In Alaska

Rob is in Alaska TDY (temporary duty assignment). He wanted me to go, but I passed up an opportunity, wanted to save my leave and it would be nice to be alone....eat what I want.....sleep when I want.....be bored when I want. The only problem is I AM NOT ALONE.

Last night I got home early from work (I usually get home late because I have to wait on Rob), I left at exactly 4:00 and got home a little before 5:00 (traffic don't you know). I walked in my house and sighed heavly.....Alone.....boys were are work.....so I thought. I got my exercise clothes on and put in a circuit CD got my weights and started working out.

A little while later, James enters with his long time friend Onagie, and I am not alone any more. I was not done so I threw him my most dirty of all looks and he said, "Oh your working out and headed back out the door". When I was done they came in and started talking and talking and talking.....it is what young boys do.

Then Willie called James to come pick him up from work, I gave them money to eat.....I was not cooking, and went to my room where I could be alone, but I got hungry and had to come out and brave the wild terrain. They brought home their spoils of fast food, and I made me something healthier I gave them all dirty looks, I thought if I willed it they would magically disappear, but I found out that only happens in story books. They did decide on a movie so I would get my alone time, but wait alas that fell through. James played his guitar and showed me a song or two or three, and Onagie talked my ear off. Willie stayed in his room.

I gave up and went in my room after I pretended to be interested in all of their conversations (Sorry boys). I read a few magazines, cleaned up a little and then got ready for my shower. Low and behold Rob calls....and of course I am naked (sorry for the picture people). At that same moment Willie banged on my door and wanted to hold a conversation through the door, so I yelled at everyone (bad me). I asked Rob why he was calling so late when I should have been happy that he just called me at all, and I yelled at Willie to leave me alone I was naked I would talk to him later.

Later on, after guilt set in and I thought about my actions. All I wanted was to be left alone, but the funny thing is I should be happy that they all love me and want to spend time with me, and they think about me. Who else has such wonderful children, James sings me songs, Willie tells me funny stories, and their friends let me cook for them. I apologized to Willie this morning told him I was an old cranky old woman, and that I was sorry. I will have to do the same when Rob calls tonight. I may not be alone but I am loved, what more could a girl ask for.

Friday, August 20, 2010

IBS SUCKS

This morning it started I knew it was coming a bull fledged attack. Sometimes I get the mild ones, just little gas but they are okay, but once is a while I get the ones where I just can't function. I feel like such a baby so when I am at work I just don't tell anyone usually I go home, but today I was stubborn and I am paying for it now.

The cramps are incredible you feel like some has taken a vise and is twisting you intestines over and over again. Sometimes I throw up with them, I am trying to keep things down, the strange thing about is, you can't eat. I just can't eat and exercise is out of the question for today, Well, sorry everyone maybe tomorrow I will be passed it.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Giving Things Up Can Be Dangerous.....Really!!!

Along with eating right and exercising, I have given up biting on my nails. This may sounds crazy but I love biting my nails and always have. When I am having a stressful day my hands go straight for my mouth. It is my comfort for me, I was a thumb sucker so I guess it was the next best thing after my dad put Tabasco sauce on my thumb to get me to stop sucking my thumb. My baboo did it too so maybe I got it from her.

I have to say it has caused many problems for me. First of all what do I do with all the extra movement I have now that I don't have it to calm myself down. When I was younger it help keep me from wiggling in class. Teachers hated that about me, I always had to be moving and either my leg was going a mile an hour or if I was standing I was constantly moving side to side, back and forth. If you have ever watched Briana you know she does the same thing....sorry Briana. Rob would laugh at us he said we made him sea sick, I would move one way back and forth and she would move the other way. All of my children do it. Rob doesn't so I know it comes from me, I just can't help it. I need to be moving.

So....not bitting my nails has caused many problems I did not have before. Like yesterday I went to scratch an itch on my arm and scratched off a mole....ouch it did not feel good and blood was gushing down my arm. I have scratches all over my hands, legs, and arms where I have accidentally scratched myself with my nails (and they aren't even really long yet). Nails are deadly people. I wonder if anyone ever killed themselves by scratching the tar out of themselves.....well, I tell you I might just be the first to find out.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Family Ties

My daughter Briana (Pookie) and I were talking today, e-mailing then a phone call today. It is really nice to be able to do that, especially since we are so far away from each other. I miss her so bad some days it hurts, but I don't tell her. I don't want her to feel bad and I know she feels just as I do and she misses me to pieces.

During our conversation I came to a revelation (A good one). We (our family) is a family that stands together no matter what. The things I wanted to teach my kids the most for their lives I have accomplished. It has taken me a while to see it in all of them, but I do. It is so satisfying to be able to see it and watch them show it. They are important things to me and some of them were instilled in me by my parents:

Number one: To love the Lord with all your heart. My children do. I love to see them calling on God to help them in certain situations. I know it is silly but when they were small I used to make them stop (when they had lost something) and call on the Lord for help. I used to tell them God helps with everything even the small things in our lives, nothing is too little for God. I love to see them praying for each other. Like now when they are all praying for Chris. It warms my heart because I love the Lord with all my heart. I see them turning to him in all things like Rob and I have time and time again. I am a sinner yet God loves me, all of me the good, the bad and the ugly. I hope they teach their children the love of God and how to pray, because prayer is so important. My mom taught me how to pray and it was the best gift she ever gave me.

Number two: No matter what family sticks together, in everything. You don't have to like what they have done or may be doing at the moment but you do have to stand beside them and sometimes hold them up, kick butt for them, pick them up, dust them off, or just offer some good sound moral support or advice. One of my favorite bible verses is Speak less, listen often (which is sometimes hard for a Mom).

To watch them love each other with everything they have rocks my world and I have to say my kids truly love each other and their kids with all their hearts. It makes my heart full to see how fierce they love one another other.

One thing my darling daughter pointed out today is that we can be upset with each other and we can tell each other, we can get angry and yell and in the end still love each other. We don't play games with one another, pout or second guess what is on the each others mind. We say it like we see it, you always know what is on our minds. You don't have to like it, but at least you know how we are feel about things. I like that. I like that fact that each of my children are able to stand up for themselves, but most of all speak their minds. Rob used to get mad at me and he would say, "See what you did, they are talking back, but I would just smile as long as they weren't disrespectful, I saw it as equipping them for the big bad wolf (the world) and I wanted them to be able to blow the houses down (learn to stand up for themselves) when they needed to. I can truly say ALL the kids know how to do that, and I hope they teach their kids the same thing, to never be afraid to voice their opinions. My mom and dad taught me, it just took me a little longer to adopt it for myself.

Friday, August 13, 2010

My Garrett

This one is for Garrett, Garrett I am so proud of you. I sometimes see the man you have become and it lights my heart up. You are so strong, and confident......okay and I will say it cocky (but your mom is too).

The little boy that I held so tightly at the hospital was such a fragile thing, and your birth was very quick, but because it was so quick the doctors said it was stressful for you. I was never so delighted than to share that day alone with you in the hospital. I told you my wishes, hopes and dreams for you, and told you about God and how he would always take care of you when I wasn't around. One starry night I held you up to stars and ask God to bless you and keep you safe.

There were times when we fought when you were growing up, but nothing touches my heart more then remembering you sitting in my lap, sucking you thumb and just being my Garrett. The little boy who used to dance with me and his sister took away all the bad in the world at the time and made me laugh when I didn't have much to laugh at.

You struggled for a while in school and I thought that putting you in early had been a mistake. I beat myself up about it and sometimes I cried because you tired so hard and it hurt you, but then you found your groove and you proved to everyone you could do anything as long as you worked hard enough. You inspired me.

I loved you and your sister so much you both were my the greatest joy. I never realized how much I was made to be a mom until you and Briana came along, then Christina, Christopher, James and Willie and I never realized how full-filing it could be. It is the best job in the world to have I hope you get to have it too someday (okay a daddy then). I wouldn't change a thing. If I did it would have changed you into a different person, and I love the man you are becoming.

Do you realize how special you are. When you love someone, you love them hard and strong, don't ever change that, because that is the way love should always be. The things I love about you the most is the way you always have time to listen. No matter what you are doing, you listen to the people around you, and not only that but you care about them too. You do nice things for people and yes when you don't have to do but because of your loyalty (which is never ending) you do it because you are their son, their grandson, their brother, or even their friend.

I love how intelligent you are and I love (I know I shouldn't but I do) how opinionated you are. I have always wanted my kids to speak their minds and not be afraid to do so, and man...can you do it. I love that you are never afraid (well you are but you do it anyways) to tackle anything. Like when you moved away from us and went to college and worked to pay your own way through all of it.

I love that you were there for my dad when he was dying (a lot of people couldn't of done that) but you did, because that is the type of person you are. I love that you write and boy can you write, from they many poems you have given me to the books. I love that you have that artistic side. I know I don't tell you all the time (now that you are a man) but I love you Garrett, and those who don't are crazy wack-a-doodles. From my little man to my big man......Know that your mommy will always love you no matter what. I am proud of you.

I love my MOMMY

I just had to give a shout out to my mommy too! Just in case you got jealous cuz I love you too mom....whoop.....whoop.....drop it down low.......how low can you go.........MY MOM IS SO COOL!!!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Oh No not the In-Laws

I just wanted to give a shout out to me in-laws!!! That would be the Margaret and Billy Wayne....So hey.....HO.....whoop.....whoop......love you guys.

I am so happy to have them apart of my life, there are so many people who don't get along with their In-laws. They fight and bicker and just hate them I mean really hate them......but not me. God has given the most supportive In-laws around. I love them like my parents they are warm and loving, and I aspire to be more like them in my Christian walk. They are always there for me in prayer.

When I was going through Chemo treatments there wasn't a week that went by when I didn't receive a card from them, and more than that they were praying for me, but not only that they had the whole church praying for me. When I was down they lifted me in up. If I were to ask them for a hand up they would give me four.

So here to you Margaret and Bill lets all raise our tea glasses high in the air and say here.....here to THE GREATEST IN-LAWS IN THE WORLD.

I have told them many times and I really mean it someday their mansion in heaven is going to enormous......I only hope they let me come live with them......mine will be much smaller. They do so much for the people around them they inspire me to be a better person. I love you both.

Monday, August 9, 2010

No no not Monday......please make it go away

Yeap no denying it. It was Monday today, after a really relaxing weekend, well....I cleaned but I got to read too. I thought it was a good weekend. Rob and I walked everyday, and we walked today.

Today he stayed home, he went to a funeral of one of his mentors. I didn't......sorry I hate funerals. I went to work. I went to work, I packed my lunch and closed the door to the office at lunch time and pretended I wasn't there while I read a magazine. It was very nice and very quiet. The best thing about today......I did not have to wait on Rob to go home, because he had to pick me up, so he was there at exactly 4:00.

So all in all it was a pretty quiet today....Hooray for quiet days. Oh yeah and for all of you on the mainland Hawaii was beautiful today apsolutely breathtaking.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Today

Today was good. Willie is sick he has been sick but too stubborn to go to the doctors. He will have to now he has a sore throat. I stayed home to try and get him an apt. but they did not have any so I went back to work. When I got there guess who had a phone call from Triplers human resources department. They said I was one of the top candidates for the job and needed some more information.....I told you. Now that I don't want it I will probably be picked.

When Rob and I got home we went for a walk. I felt so good because usually I have to beg Rob to walk with me, this time he asked me. Then after we got back to the house he said go on home, I am going to run and try and make it up the hill I never seem to be able to get passed without walking. When he came home he had.....what a man. I am already starting to feel better and making it longer and longer without wanting to quit.

Of course my son Garrett has helped inspire me with his books on tape.....thanks Garrett. My daughters have both inspired me too. A long time ago when they were little we were outside all the time and we walked and went to the park....being a mommy keeps you in shape.

Christina has never looked better, now that she isn't too skinny she is so beautiful and has a prefect shape from running after those girls, and Briana has worked hard to get back in pre- baby shape. My mother too, she is always working out and has her daily exercises. Now its your turn Garrett! Girls when I grow up I want to be just like you.

Monday, August 2, 2010

The interview is O V E R

So I went over to my job interview at the hospital and sat and waited and waited, then four of them interviewed me all at once it kind of made you feel like you were ganged up on.

The Deputy Chief (who would be one of my bosses) proceeded to bash the Air Force (where I work). I love the Air Force. The Deputy (who likes himself....a lot) proceeded to ask me stupid questions, sorry but they were. Why were they stupid questions? They asked me what other jobs I have had and how long I have been in Hawaii, then one of the ladies was totally shocked, she oh you live here, I mean you call Hawaii home? All of those questions were on my resume (guess they don't read). I mean did they even bother to look at my resume at all.....I don't think so, and I am sure the Deputy didn't, and if his nose got any higher in the sky I am sure he would have took off.

I even got a lecture about how important his job was and how important they all were (him and the chief), they are so important that everyone wanted to meet with them all the time. Now I could have told him that I work for HQ PACAF and we have 3 Generals on staff, but I didn't I don't think he wanted to come down from his high horse and I didn't have the heart to watch a grown man cry.

Needless to say I wouldn't take the job even if they gave me a great deal more money. I never wanted to get away from somewhere so bad before and from the moment I arrived. I felt that way the whole time it was just terrible and nobody was friendly at all.

In the end they made me take a test.....yes I said test. I had to look over a memorandum and check it for errors, and after that one of the secretaries said, "Okay sometimes we are asked to right spur of the moment letters for the Chief so here is a blank paper write us a condolence letter the best as you can do". I looked at her like she was crazy and she said here are the names of the people the husband and his wife who died, now just write the best letter you can.

So I asked her, "I am sorry but who is this letter on behalf of, I can't write a letter unless I know who I am suppose to writing it on behalf of". She just stared at me and finally said, "oh that doesn't matter just do the best you can". Like I was a bother to her, I could not believe it, I was so shocked.

Then I got mad, I wrote, on behalf of the staff here at Tripler Army Medical Center we would like to send Mr. David Joesph our sincere condolences on the passing of his dear wife Elizbeth Joseph. I then finished it off like the professional I am. I am sorry but I couldn't wait to get out of there, I almost ran. Then I laughed all the way back to my job (which I love).

Headaches suck

I had a bad migraine today. I didn't have it till after church so of course I am blaming my husband's sermon, hehehehe. He has been upset since yesterday one of his all time favorite people passed away. I feel really bad for him.

My head feels like somebody was bashing it today. I can't complain I don't get them like I used to, when they took some pieces out of my body it ended the monthly ones. When we went into Target today I smelled something in the auto section, and that is how it began. I will probably look at this tomorrow and say what the heck did I write.

I have been trying to figure out what I will wear tomorrow for my interview I don't thing it will matter, but I still want to look good. My office will be empty this week, my boss and the Major are both gone.

Okay peeps talk to tomorrow.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Movie with a Friend

Went to the movies today with my friend Mo (Maureen McFerrin). Went went to see Eclipse, it was okay, stuck to the book pretty well, but I haven't liked the any of the books so there you go. Mo is a big Jacob fan, it makes me laugh, but it was fun anyways, cuz Mo always cracks me up.

You would have to meet her to appreciate her. She is a talker but then I like that about her, and she is really the nicest, caring person I have met. She talks too fast so you have to be quick in tongue in order to get a word or two in, but that is just another thing that I love about her. I have learned to shove a word in here and there, and sometimes it throws her off and she can't remember were she is, and it just cracks me up. She has an infectious laugh too. I love my Mo and we had a great girls day out.

Later in the evening I decided to take a walk and listened to my book on tape. I love that I have them. Garrett hooked me up when I went to California. It is so nice of him to do that, and now I have books to listen to when I am exercising and it really helps to make me want to get out there and do it.

Kids, you would be proud of your dad went running today I didn't have to nag him or nothing. and he is still dropping weight.